Here is an Idea, for those who read this, come up with a tittle for it.

Sleep is non existenet and I cant seem to believe in the same things I believed not long ago. What I do seem to still hold on to is love. Its the only thing getting me through a war, the thought that one day I will feel it. That it will fight for me like I would for it. I am in this war with my brothers and sisters and its because I wish to bring peace nothing more.

There is a quote I really like it goes "When will our consience grow so tender that we will act to prevent it human misery rather than avenge it?" - Eleanor Roosevelt.

I do care about my brothers and sister and never wish them death, only love.

Someone asked me a question once that made me think really hard about life. It is a typical war question one that most cannot answer without being in that position, but there are those that know what is true and what they would do.

The question is "If there was a grenade thrown in between you and another man, a man you know has a daughter, and a wife. and a family. Would you jump on it so he could see his family again if it was the only way for one to live? My answer is yes. I would pray for those last moment and hope everything would be fine, that my parents understood, and that my friends would not forget. But instead of anger, I would hope they would help bring peace, and love. As that is what I died for.

I have no kids, no wife, and that's why I would let a family have their father their husband for my life. Because truth is all the world needs is just a little more love.

Just always remember to know what love is, it is trust, its kindness, it is all that is good in this world. There is not such a thing as too much love. But there is such a thing as Jealousy, human desire, and sometimes these things can come out of a person with only the intention to love, it will come out because, we are human. But if we can change, then we can prove to her, to them, and to the world. That anything is possible including World Peace.

I could go on writing for day to explain my errors and the errors of others but it would not make a difference, this note will never make it to CNN or NBC or some big News it will be for you all that read it.

There is two quotes I leave you off with the first is a good one I remember from American History X "So I guess this is where I tell you what I learned - my conclusion, right? Well, my conclusion is: Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it. Derek says it's always good to end a paper with a quote. He says someone else has already said it best. So if you can't top it, steal from them and go out strong."

So my quote is from a movie, that really didn't do that great but had a great message intended.

"War is waged by nations, but it is human beings that pay the price. For those of us that survive we are left with the memories of shame, and misery, and bloodshed. In theses dark times the only thing we have left to hold on too, is love, the one true gift of god/the gods, and it is through love that we hope and pray that god/the gods will send us peace." - Helen of Troy.

So this is it this is what I learned, take of it what you will, but there is love for us all out there, But we need to learn to change our ways before giving it up, without realizing that we pushed it away ourselves, and unintentionally gave it all away our self's

Listening to: James Blunt - No Bravery